5.20.2001

Why does this weekend seem long and endless? I really don't like the weekends all that much anymore. Most of the Kappa Sigmas went down to OSU. I've just kind of been hanging around with whoever is here. I feel like I'm floating through space and time. I'm not bothered, I'm not in a bad mood. I'm just kind of doing whatever happens to come along. I like having a sense of purpose. I don't like just waiting around to see what happens next. I like taking control and making plans. Today I woke up and decided that I'm going to go to the park and read all day with a big Chai Tea Latte from Starbucks. Maybe someone will come down and join me. Just relaxing in the park talking with people who I have been growing distant from.

I had an interesting conversation with a friend yesterday and he said, "I can talk to you but I don't trust you. It's not your fault that I don't trust you. I don't trust anyone right now. And I don't really care that I don't trust anyone." Hmm.

I bought yummy things for lunch today! Turkey sandwich, quarts of fresh strawberries, carrot and celery sticks with onion dip. Maybe Dave will make artichokes for dinner. That would be lovely.

My sister's junior Prom was yesterday. My mother was so happy that she was going. I guess she is relieved that one of her daughters turned out normal.

This is the most evil drug ever made. I have stopped taking them.